hey pple... how r u pple feelin?.. hope u all r fine.. unlike me...i've been sick eversince the LTC camp...i did went to see the doc....(cuz many of my frens forced me to)..and....sigh... i guess my condition is really bad.. the doc wants me to go to hospital to go for a full check up...just like wat my dad told me, the doc also said i may have sm kind of infection in my lungs causin me to cough alot and really bad... sigh... smtimes i can see dat my life is endin soon..i juz dunnoe... well if really GOD wants me to go, den i will...hmm.. well.. i hope u pple, esp to my frens and family, PLS tk care of ur health.. dun want u pple to end up like me.... till den...bye...
WHEN TOMMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME
When tomorrow starts without me,
and I'm not there to see.
If the sun should rise and find your eyes,
all filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn't cry,
the way you did today.
While thinking of the many things,
we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
as much as I love you.
And each time you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand.
That an angel came and called my name,
and took me by the hand.
And said my place was ready,
in heaven far above.
And that Id have to leave behind,
all those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
a tear fell from my eye.
for all my life I always thought,
I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for,
so much left to do.
It almost seemed impossible,
that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
the good ones and the bad.
I thought of all the love we shared,
and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday,
for even just a while.
Id say good bye and kiss you,
and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized,
that this could never be.
For emptiness and memories,
would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow.
I thought of you and when I did,
my heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked though heavens gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
from his great Golden throne.
He said This is eternity,
and all I've promised you.
Today your life on earth is past,
but here starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
but today will always last.
And since each days the same way,
theres no longing for the past.
You have been so faithful,
so trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things,
you knew you shouldn't do.
But you have forgiven,
and now at last your free.
So wont you came and take my hand,
and live my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts without me,
don't think we're far apart.
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here is your heart.
PS: If im really gone, pls tk care of urselves ya. Pls dun cry and be sad. Its juz dat its time for me to go. If u ever miss me, just look up at the stars and talk to them, i'll always be up there listening to you. tk care to all i dearly love..
⥠you and i both loved
⥠you and i both loved
hey pple... read this.... and "OBEY".. hahha....As 4 me.. i dun care.. i still hate pple in silence....
Consider how much more you often suffer from your anger and grief, than from those very things for which you are angry and grieved. (Marcus Antonius)
Don't hold to anger, hurt or pain. They steal your energy and keep you from love. (Anonymous)
Hatred - The anger of the weak. (Alphonse Daulet)
Holding on to anger only gives you tense muscles. (Joan Lunden)
If you are patient in one moment of anger, you will escape a hundred days of sorrow. (Chinese Proverb)
Like an unchecked cancer, hate corrodes the personality and eats away its vital unity. Hate destroys a man's sense of values and his objectivity. It causes him to describe the beautiful as ugly and the ugly as beautiful, and to confuse the true with the fact ( Martin Luther King, Jr.)
Moderation in temper is always a virtue; but moderation is principle is always a vice. (Thomas Paine)
The best answer to answer to anger is silence. (Anonymous)
When anger rises, think of the consequences. (Confucius)
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FROM: KIMMY! =p
⥠you and i both loved
why do u so heartlessly stab urself...
every word of spite...
and insult...and every sarcasm...
everytime u brush aside someone;s concern...
everytime u reject help...
everytime u refuse to say to reveal....
u stab a knife into ur own heart...
why do u do it...
even when u crave for the concern others throw upon u
u are not dying...
u are killing urself...
shutting out the love....
the joys...
and tears...
u leave urself empty of emotions...
but don;t u understand
thats not true peace....
thats despair...
given up...
why....why dun u do something to make ur life better....
why dun u open up...to the love...
to love again...
to accept love...
to accept loving?....
why dun u show the happy side of u...
be who u are...
be the king of kings...
so pls....
pls stop murdering urself...
stop punishing urself...
let goodness prevail...
hmm... well dis is wat KIM wrote to me in msn....izit true abt me?? hmm... y dun u pple judge??... well as for me...after reading afew times...i guess its sooo true... hmm.. i guess i have to change myself... bt how?? i juz wish i cld gain back my happiness dat i used to have...well kim...thanx 4 makin me come back to my senses...watever it is.. i'll try very hard so as to get back my happiness... hmm...
⥠you and i both loved
alright peeps... listen up!.. im back... yup! im back wif my revenge and my deepest hatred on pple hu juz constanly pretended to like me bt hated me deep in them and dun dare to show it out.. oh c'mon.... fuck off will u!!... If ur motive is to make me fall hard right on the ground so that u can step on me...think again.. its not gonna happen...My only downfall will only happen when im no longer standing on the earth.(yes! When Im dead!) i may be quiet all the time.. bt dat doesnt mean i gt nth to say... dats juz me.. AND I AM HU I AM... and nth's gonna change! So pple... hate me and i MEAN HATE ME HARD for all i care!!! juz want u to noe dat my hatred 4 u is juz juz too hard 4 u to handle...!!!
I AM HU I AM!
The shadows fall, in my darkened room
Where the candles cast an eerie light.
Bathing my face in darkness,
Hiding my emotions.
I wish that somebody would tell me
Who I am
Not who they want me to be,
Or who I make myself
But who I really am.
You say that you don't like me
You say that you want to change me
It hurts, but you don't care.
As long as I'm in pain, you are happy.
As long as I'm crying, you are laughing.
I want to be myself
Not a "freak", not a "weirdo"
Just ME
But how can I be?
When no one will let me!
"Do this"
"Wear this"
"Say this"
I am nothing
I am your puppet on a string
You've mangled my heart and my head
You've destroyed me!
But I won't let you change me anymore
Who am I?
I am ME!
I TRUSTED YOU
You reached inside my soul
Emptied my emotions and twisted my heart
With your bare hands
Your words harsh and your lips cold
You feel no emotion
Weeping aloud I wonder why?
I trusted you with my deepest secrets
My empty heart I gave to you
You filled it up and poured it out
And left me bleeding
Alone and broken
I thought you were different
So full of love and advice
Tender and warm
Cold and unfeeling
A monster trapped inside your mind
Wanting only one thing
Devoured me slowly
You made me
You destroyed me
You were like my good friend to me.
But sadly to say, I was nothing to you
I am
Nothing!
Used!
Nobody!
Gone!
⥠you and i both loved
sigh.... juz gt nth to say... except...IM BORN FAILURE... im juz a failure in everythin in life...no use givin me extra chances... cuz i'll juz keep failing..again and again...juz no point u guyz makin frenz like me.... no use livin anywae... sigh.....
Despite your words,
Im a failure.
Placing hope in others,
In you my cure.
"We are all prisoners,
Of our own device."
Because of me,
Im caught in ice.
Blame rests,
On none but me.
Future mistakes,
I didnt see.
Its all my fault,
Im hurt this way.
Its because I fail,
I have to say.
"I was dying,
Nearly had my cure.
But Im to fucking dumb,
Im just failure.
Im hurt worse now,
Then was before.
This pain I bought,
Bought so much more."
My heart blames me,
My mind blames you.
Its not your fault,
Know that as true.
You hurt me,
Because I fail.
My fault not yours,
My heart impale.
You hid from me,
That cause me pain.
Because I was too weak,
To ask again.
At first I saw,
Just a delay.
My amending chance,
Is blown away.
Now a delay,
Just failure clear.
My knuckles bleed,
My shattered mirror.
"Closer" you say,
Like that is better.
Closer is still failure,
"F" my grade letter.
Im a fallen guy,
Cant see the top.
My rampant failure,
Will never stop.
When I fail myself,
I barely care.
But I failed you,
You I couldn't spare.
I dont deserve,
All you've done.
Don't forget Im me,
The worthless one.
I've hurt myself,
And dragged you down.
In my crimson life,
I wish to drown.
I pray release,
You all of me.
But failure and pain,
Are all I see.
I've trapped myself,
And you are caught.
Until that day,
I pass to not.
I've failed, I've hurt,
I deserve to die.
I scream my pain,
I want to cry.
Release, escape,
And peace of mind.
Are barred to me,
I'm left behind.
⥠you and i both loved
⥠you and i both loved